Tuesday, 3 January 2017

One Year On.


Tomorrow marks exactly a year since I began this little blog of mine, and what a year it's been. I've learnt so much in such a short space of time, and I have truly grown to love my wee corner of the internet. Who knew it would bring me so much happiness?


Okay, so I haven't updated here as much as I wanted to, but still, I got over 70 blog posts done last year which isn't too shabby! Obviously there's a lot of room for improvement and I do intend on taking it a bit more seriously this year, but I'm so pleased that I managed to stick to it even that much and didn't go a full month without a post. I am slowly but surely training my inner lazy bitch to be a bit more productive!

My blog has been absolutely priceless in terms of my mental health. I haven't written that much on the topic, but what I have shared has been received so well that it has really made a difference to me. I've felt so much less alone, and being able to see that other people have/are going through what I am makes this place feel like my own personal support group. It's been so refreshing to be able to write how I'm feeling and feel that weight come off my shoulders immediately. When I think back to how awful I felt this time last year it's clear that this outlet has really helped me. I still have a long way to go, but I'm taking comfort in the fact that at least I'm not any worse, haha!

I am beginning to kick my anxiety's arse and I don't know that I could've done that without this. I've so far only been to one blogging event, but it was something I'd never even have considered this time last year. That email inviting me along really was a turning point though - I was so close to doing what I always do and automatically saying no. Being around people, voluntarily?! Are you kidding me? Instead, I took a leap of faith and I am so glad I did. Getting out and about in general has become a bit easier, and I even started a new class today that I'm hopeful will help with my overall confidence. 

In a similar vein, I've already started exploring this country more. Since my blog started I've visited Mull, Raasay and Skye, as well as some day trips to some nearby locations. I've seen some beautiful sights and I have loved every second. I can't wait to do more travelling this year.

I feel like I have much more of a purpose these days. I feel a bit more like a fully rounded person. I have begun to realise that despite all my shortcomings I have something to offer. Maybe that thing is just a rambly, badly written rant about mental health stigma, or maybe it's some pictures of a place you'd never have thought of visiting, but I finally feel like my voice is being heard, even just a little bit. I've even had people write to me to say how much they liked my posts, or that they noticed I haven't updated in a while and am I okay? That feels so surreal, but amazing. For a long time I felt like I was talking to myself on here, but no! People read this shit! My blog stats aren't incredible, but they definitely aren't all from my IP address. I have big goals for this year and I hope I reach them, but I'm also just so grateful for everything I've achieved in this past year.

Lastly, I am blown away by how much the blogging world has changed my social life. I don't really have that many friends, and I used to feel pretty lonely. Don't get me wrong, I'm still a self-pitying whinger, but I now know that if I needed someone to talk to I could always find someone on Twitter. More so than that, though - I've made genuine friends. There are so many that I can't even write about them all, but there are four people who make my life much brighter on a day-to-day basis: RachelAbbeyVee and Tori. They make me laugh, cheer me on, and console me if I'm having a bad day. I've never had a group of girl friends who aren't competitive and bitchy, and it warms my little cold dead heart to have them in my life. I feel so very lucky that blogging brought me to them.

As I said, I have big plans and goals for this blog over the next year, and I hope I will be uploading a lot more frequently for a start! I just want to thank any of you that have read my words, left a lovely comment, or interacted with me on any of my social media sites: you have all made my life so much more positive and meaningful, and I am so very appreciative of it all! I can't wait to see what the next year of blogging will bring me.
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4 comments

  1. Looking forward to reading more of your posts this year! Keep going!!

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  2. Wishing you a very happy blog birthday, Beth! 🎉 It's so great to read such a positive post from you! Blogging pushes me out of my comfort zone quite a lot as well, and it's fantastic when the risk pays off, like you with your blogger event! Here's to many more blogger events for you in 2017! Reading that you feel like you do have something to offer brought a huge smile to my face, it's absolutely true and I'm so happy that you've come to that realisation! Thank you so much for the mention as well, I have never been that person with a big group of girly friends (mainly due to competitiveness and bitchiness which I find incredibly irritating) so to have you, Rachel, Tori, and Vee has really meant the world to me! 🙊

    Abbey 🐝 www.abbeylouisarose.co.uk

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  3. Happy blogging anniversary gal �� I'm so glad that blogging brought us together ��
    This is such a good post, and I'm really looking forward to seeing all the new content on your blog this year, I'm really excited to see all the wonderful things on your blog! Especially more posts on mental health and how you cope with your own mental health xx

    Tori�� www.pinaforesandposies.com

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  4. This is amazing! What a massive achievement, it's only recent I've come across your blog but I already love it and cannot wait to see what 2017 brings for you lovely! I'm sure there'll be a lot more achievements for you this year.

    Gemma | www.anoceanglimmer.wordpress.com

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